Sometimes all I wish is a clear picture of my life.
Just like a movie, I wish I could predict each scenario, phase, and outcome.
Thoughts battling in my head and wishing I could just get a glimpse of my future.
What will happen in the next minute, hours, or days.
I just want to know!
And as I begin to ruminate on my intentions;
I ask myself, why exactly do I want a clear picture of my life?
Why do I want to know the future right in the present?
And I realized, it is my selfish and never-ending wants.
The quest for a perfect life filled with zero mistakes
What fun is this?
What fun is in life with knowing the unknown before it happens?
Yes, it could do some good;
However, this teaches me to trust!
Not in my abilities, strengths, and past successes,
But trust in someone and something much greater than myself.
When I know it all, pride may consume me and then I’ll seize to trust in the one who made the universe.
I start playing god by manipulating my life to fit my desire and not his.
So I resolved within myself that I just have to trust in the only one who can give me peace in the unknown and give a clear picture of my life.
I don’t have to know!
However, just like David, I should be confident that “the Lord will work out his plans for my life – for his faithful love, endures forever.” (Psalms 138:8)